Dharcy Exposed

Om idag inte var en ändlös landsväg
Och inatt en vild och krokig stig
Om imorgon inte kändes så oändlig
Då är ensamhet ett ord som inte finns

Men bara om jag vet att du väntar
Och kan höra ditt hjärta sakta slå
Bara om du låg här tätt intill mig
Kan jag bli den jag var igår

(Bara om min älskade väntar – the Uno Svenningsson & Sophie Zelmani version)

I’ve got to stop, got to stop the trembling
it’s beginning to drag me down
I’ve got to change my wishes
I’ve got to stop wanting
wanting you here

I’ve got to do something about the dreaming
it leaves the day the loss of been touched
I’ve got to discover some other meaning
and I’ve got to stop
wanting you so much

I’ve got to stop, got to stop the exploding
it’s taking too much sense off me
I’ve got to change my thinking
because it blinds me and blinds the right way to see

I’ve got to stop saving
the abundance becomes a shame without you
I’ve got to give up the believing
I’ve got to stop hoping
but that’s so hard to do

and I’ve got to stop, I’ve got to stop worrying
about why loneliness follows me
I’ve got to stop, damning
damning time
for it’s aging me

(Got to stop – Sophie Zelmani)

I haven’t been writing lately because my head is spinning from all kinds of things happening lately, way back and right now. I’ll have to admit that I’m lost and that I don’t know where I’m going from here. Everything lacks a purpose, everything lacks meaning and reason. It’s like I’m just floating along waiting for something to burst for good so I can just give up. Giving up. In many ways I’m already there. I’m tired of standing up, I’m tired of fighting something that just won’t go away; I’m tired of this never-ending battle that’s just lining up round after round. I’m out of breath. (more…)