There were times when looking back at this blog felt like looking down a big, black hole and so I decided to leave it behind. The thing is though, that no matter how much I try to fool myself by attempting to be someone else, I always have to face the fact that I can’t be, at least not yet. This blog holds so many secrets about myself that I’ve hidden away from family and friends, that it’s hard to just  ignore it. They’re part of my past and I guess I should just try to live with them for now. Even the dark and scary parts that I’d rather like to forget. (more…)